My grandmother was the person "grooming" me for the cult. I was to be a leader: a queen or high priestess. She told me that my mother was not my mother, that she was really my mother and had me nurse from her breast to prave it. When everyone left the house (my mom, grandfather, and brother) in the morning she would chase me around the house with scissors. I would hide under the bed and she would poke them at me. I had already seen them cut the tongue out of a toddler's mouth. They then took the baby and made a doll out of it (by killing, skinning, gutting, and stuffing it) for me to play with. They locked me in a chest with the doll.

She also had a corpse at home that she called "the witch" and she would chase me with it or put it in the bed with me at nap time. They locked me in a closet with corpses in various states of decay.

She bit the head off of my brother's bird and then made me suck the blood out of it. She kept it to show my brother what I had done to the bird. She fed me worms for lunch and told me that was what my mother wanted me to eat.

My grandfather's friends would come over at lunch and pay her so they could have sex with me. She molested me all the time, made me and my brother have sex and made the dog have with sex with me (bestiality). She made me perform on stage in kiddie porn strip teases. They filmed pornography, bestiality, necrophilia and certain sexual rituals, all involving me. At 13 years old I was married to my grandfather (representing Satan) by Anton LaVey, the founder of the Church of Satan. When my period started or as they called it "coming of age", they raped me with a silver crucifix. They also buried me with corpses for an hour with only an air hose to breath.

One time my grandmother killed (poisoned) a man in our kitchen, sawed his legs off, put him in a large freezer and put me in there with him. I spent a lot of time confined in the freezer, under the house, in the closet, or chained to the bed with only a dog leash and collar on. I ate dog food.

They held me in front of a circular saw and discussed whether they should cut me in half or not. They hung me upside down from the rafters in the garage. They hurt me while I was upside down.

My grandmother scalded my head with hot water and beat me. On the way to the outdoor ritual site they would pretend to push me out of the car by opening the door and holding me near the ground. They would drop me off on the country road and drive away and leave me there alone.

I saw rituals that included murder -- they barbecued a man on a rotisserie, and they killed "the baby Jesus" under a tree at Christmas time in a mock Christmas play. They then wrapped his penis up and gave it to me as a present. I was taught to kill, skin, and eat body parts and drink blood. Altogether I must have killed 8 babies for Satan at various times.

They put me in a corpse (the witch). They also put me in a goat for the rebirthing ceremony (being born to Satan). I killed a baby girl that day as my "offering to Satan". They ate her and had a bizarre orgy and I was raped by all the men in the cult.

They had cock fights and killed many cats. They shocked me with a cattle prod on the base of the spine and knees in order to get me to perform as they wanted me to or to make me forget what had happened.

My grandmother wrapped the scissors around my tongue almost daily to remind me what would happen if I told (I saw other people get their tongues cut out for trying to tell what they saw).

They taught me ritual dances, to read backwards and to speak backwards.

My grandmother took me to a chicken farm that was a place where they performed voodoo and had a snake bite me and then quickly administered an antidote.

She quickly rendered me unconscious by holding me under water in the toilet or bathtub, smothering me with a pillow or choking me.

They made me eat spiders and stung me with bees.

They had 2 playmates for me (at separate times). Both were killed. One was in the basement of a farm house. She was hung by her hair and was "let down" by chopping her head off. They then performed an operation on her and taught me all the body parts. They made me play "hot potato" with her head.

The other girl came over to see my lamb (which they killed on Good Friday (mocking Jesus) and we ate the brains for dinner, raw, of course). My grandmother cut her in half at the waist. She was put in the freezer until she could be cut up and boiled. This was common. Then she put quicklime on the bones.

I was raped by my grandfather one night and then my grandmother stabbed me in the vagina with scissors. After I had crawled to the bathroom she came in, called me a slut and told me to clean up the blood off the floor. She called me a slut and always examined my bed to see if there were any signs of sex the night before (which would have been done by them). If there were she rubbed my face in it then beat me. After she stabbed me she kept me home from school for 2 weeks to get me back on my feet. During this time she scrubbed my wounds with Hexyl and a scrub brush. (My mother was out of town on a job at this time).

All this happened before I was 8 years old.

They crucified me and hung me upside down in the garage for a 24-hour period. They starved me when they could.

They forced me to decapitate a young woman and remove her unborn child from her womb. They later killed her toddler son. First they tortured him by cutting off his penis, stucka hot fireplace poker inside him and then put it through his heart. I was in the third grade.

They had a torture chamber where they killed many and kept the heads as trophies.

We also had a cave. In it was a "monster" (Baphomet) on a throne. Much torture and murder went on in there.

They tied me to my bed and burned my throat and body with hot scissors once because I threatened to tell. They also raped me with the arm of a baby and sewed my lips shut. sewing the baby's fingers to my lips (so I wouldn't tell).

I was burned with a fireplace poker many times.

This is about all I can write about now. Most of the rest is more of the same. This is all very common abuse by Satanic cults.

I have voluntarily told my story to warn and help others. I've been a Christian since I was a child, even while I was Satanic Ritually Abused. Because of the abuse, I now have Multiple Personality Disorder and am receiving help. Even though God set me free from these Satanists they still harass me and want me back. Signed a Satanic Ritually Abused victim.

Read Psalms 23:4 "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me (KJV).

Read Ephesians 5:11 "And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them", (KJV)

Acts 3:19 Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord". (KJV)

John 14:6 "Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me". (KJV)

Acts 4:12 Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name (Jesus Christ) under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

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