Mind Control at the U of Mn.
I believe that I was the target of a kind of trauma based Mind Control which was, back in 1960, in its experimental phase. Here is my story:
By Stan ArborI was born in 1959 in Minneapolis, Mn. About a year later, I contracted Spinal Meningitis (bacterial or viral I do not know). Spinal Meningitis infects the meninges-the slime coating shock absorber that prevents the brain from knocking against the skull. During that time the only known ‘cure’ for the disease was penicillin. I received approximately 175 shots of the stuff in my buttocks. I nearly died. My parents found out that ‘student’ nurses were practicing administering the shots on me. The disease left me totally deaf in my right ear. I believe it was the high and prolonged fever that caused the deafness although I’m not sure. I think the 'student' nurses were really military people sent to traumatize my infant body. Minneapolis was the site of bacteriological and radiation experiments done by the military at that time-so I've come to believe psy-ops was a part of this as well.
Thirty years later I started doing transformational work on myself in attempts to gain insights into the illness and the trauma associated with it. I had already broken free of drugs and alcohol as well as a suicidal form of depression which prevailed through my late teens and twenties-I did this mostly through acupuncture and herbs. Yoga, meditation, exercise and a healthier diet all contributed to helping me detoxify as well. I cleared layer after layer away of repressed memories-getting closer to the origins of my own substance abuse problems which started around the age of 13 when I would drink booze straight from the bottle out of my parent’s liquor cabinet.
In 1989 I received ten Rolfing sessions over a two month period. Rolfing is a form of deep tissue body work that can be rather extreme at times. Rolfers believe that the body becomes armored because the muscles contract when they are traumatized, thus locking in all sorts of stuff which should be released such as toxins, memories, negative emotions, even entities. When the Rolfer started working on my buttocks, attempting to get through the knots of scar tissue there, I could taste, in my mouth, the penicillin they used back in 1960. I could see the nurses who gave me the shots. I could see how cold and sterile it all was. I relived the raw pain of it all. But they were doing something else with the shots-I mean the shots were monitored-some kind of EM. I think I was given small amounts of hallucinogens to amplify the pain. I even saw the creation of sub-personalities through this technique.
After the rolfing sessions, I started feeling better-more in control of my emotions-not as up tight around others, esp. my parents. My negative states of mind were not long lasting. I experienced a greater resiliency. Depression started lifting.
After this experience, I took a psychic development class for about a year and discovered that I could do psychic readings on people. I was told by several people that meningitis will open up people’s psychic abilities. Perhaps the intense fever associated with meningitis triggers some kind of altered state of consciousness which heightens ones perceptions. I do these psychic readings professionally now and give talks on my work around the country from time to time. When I started to do creative visualization work (using a kind of inner movie screen upon which to look at things), I started to see more of my meningitis experience on so many levels: karmically, spiritually and so forth. Something was opening me up multi-dimensionally and told me I was ready for further revelations. It is at this time that things started getting very weird. Fortunately I felt supported and connected with others-a very necessary prerequisite if you are going to delve into this kind of stuff , especially if you want your sanity and your physical health to remain intact.
In the spring of 2002 I was invited to do talks on my intuitive healing work. I met with people that had been reading my writings on the internet and who were interested in my healing techniques. But instead of doing just talks on my work, I ended up getting worked on by a bodyworker who went even deeper into my scar tissue than the Rolfer did thirteen years ago. After one four hour session with her, I started having recollections of my father’s faculty position at the University of Minnesota in the 1950’s. He had received his Ph.D in psychology in ‘53 and then started teaching there afterwards. The psychology that was promoted during this time was B.F. Skinner’s Behavioralist psychology-Skinner actually was at the U of M prior to this. According to the conspiracy writer Jim Keith and others, Skinner was a product of US Army Intelligence. The psychology that he advocated basically says we are solely conditioned by our environment and that there is no such thing as free will. Perhaps Skinner’s daughter, who committed suicide, was attempting to break free of the delusion that first started when her father put her in a ‘Skinner Box' in his attempt to control her.
During one meditation session after the intense bodywork, I started to see the CIA’s involvement in the psychology department at the U. They were infiltrating the place and pushing Skinner’s work because it was one of the most effective mind control techniques available at the time, no doubt tested on soldiers in WWII before being used in the civilian domain. I could see the CIA working on my father as well. I sensed that the head of the psy department was probably an intelligence guy himself-perhaps my father’s ‘handler’ in a way. When I would see these images, I would feel very nauseous. I started to get very upset. My stomach tightened up. This wasn’t some mere figment of my imagination. I felt it as being very real. The images were not a product of my unconscious mind. They were too clear and defined. I was using the psychic sense that first opened up as an infant to see these unpleasant things. All the while I felt supported by my spiritual guides and friends.
When I shared these experiences with the host, she suggested I go to a nearby Hot Springs and ‘match my frequencies’ with the mineral rich water which would then enable me to purge the toxins. In spite of me thinking her suggestion to be somewhat New Agey, I did this the next morning and I started to see more and more of the CIAs infiltration of the U of M’s psychology and psychiatry dept. I’m glad there were no other people in the Hot Springs at that time. Emotionally, it was pretty heavy going. I couldn’t stop sobbing. It was so horrible seeing what was happening on an intuitive level and probably is still happening in psychology departments across the country. I felt all of this negative stuff just pouring out of me.
When I got my bearings, I then realized that it was during this time period that my father started drinking heavily, i.e starting in the early '60's. I've come to believe that he was hypnotised and my mother as well. He told me that the head of the dept. befriended him and would take him and my mother to operas and the like-I think this is a red flag-the guy was probably gathering information on my father's personal life and getting him to confide personal things.
About six months after the insights I had in the Hot Springs, I encountered a massage therapist who did more deep tissue work on me. For approximately four months she worked on my buttocks, breaking up the scar tissue using transverse friction and other means (such as sinking her elbows into me) to do so. Sometimes it was so unbearably painful that I would scream. The screaming allowed me to tolerate it more and enabled me to see more of what happened early on during the meningitis trauma. After awhile I stopped screaming and tried my operatic best to sing a note and sustain it when she sunk her elbows into the scar tissue. This really helped me release. The muscles hold the memories-as do the cells, something Wilhelm Reich understood and tried to convey in his writings-mostly on ‘character armor’ (incidentally he said the most armored part of the human body is the pelvic area- leading to sexual repression and authoritarianism). Psychically I could see negative entities entering into my body through the shots I was receiving embedding themselves in my muscle tissue. The extreme pain, not to mention being a helpless infant, enabled them to insert the entities and/or subpersonalities into me. I have spent approximately 14 years attempting to clear these things out of me through re-birthing, meditation, hypnosis and Jin Shin Jitysu-a form of acupressure which opens me up psychically, enabling me to see things and then release them. More importantly, I have never had to rely on psychiatrists or psychologists to help me during this entire time. I think these sub personalities were all created electromagnetically-through subliminals at from a remote location that was monitoring the entire affair.
Recently I have gained insights during meditation that I was probably deliberately infected with meningitis as a part of the CIA mind control experiment. There is evidence via FOIA that they were infiltrating the university but so many of the documents were destroyed. So I have no conclusive proof-other than my strong intuitions. I also had a spinal tap done to me and have come to believe that I was injected with some form of ionized radiation-although I’m not sure. When I meditate-I can feel my meniges being manipulated-my spinal column too. For days my tail bone will throb with pain. Even individual vertebrae-for no reason at all. Again I’m using my intuition on this one. I know this may sound ludicrous and paranoid to some of you . I must remind the reader that I have been drug and alcohol free for over 14 years and am of sound mind and body. I have nothing to gain by sharing this insight: no fame (I’m using a pen name)...no money. In addition to this, I found out from my mother a few years ago that my father blames himself for my meningitis. No doubt this had contributed to his depression and guilt which only fueled his drinking more and more. Without his conscious knowledge.... it may have been literally true. I think the CIA wanted to see how he would respond to his son’s illness and the trauma-and then use the information to further their MK programs-mostly to destroy families from what I can gather, via this trauma based form of MK. They certainly succeeded in destroying my family. I guess they wanted to see how far their Skinnerian behavior modification would go via my father’s alcoholism, inability to emotionally relate to his family, etc. It has taken me 43 years to break free of the MK control but I have for the most part. I am joyous, optimistic. I do not take anti-depressants. So it is safe to say that their experiment failed. I do not rest on laurels however-whenever I feel a subpersonality trying to take over or that my emotions are being manipulated, I respond accordingly and make sure I'm aware of what is going on. My family may still be fragmented but there is hope of some kind of healing. There actually has-between myself and my sister-it is wonderful and has given me hope indeed that others can heal as well.
I have come to believe that my father was targeted by the CIA and used in such a way because of his unusually high test scores in science and math-tests he took prior to enrolling in the army. His high test scores enabled him to avoid front line duty during WWII. How he used his math skills later in life, indicates to me that he was steered down a very manipulative course during both his student and tenure years at the U of M and then in the corporate world afterwards. Such a path was his very downfall. These insights described above have allowed me to forgive him-for he was brainwashed and manipulated. I share this story in hopes that there is something in it that others can relate to-but more importantly to trigger some form of healing. Please e-mail me-if you have a similar story.
Thank you.
Sincerely,
Stan ArborReceived 02-29-2004