No one believes me,my own family doesn't even want to hear about it.I have hundreds of documents that I have printed from my computer that covers everything that has and is happening to me for twenty five years now.They say its all in my head.I do admit,it is in my head but it doesn't originate in my head.It is from an outside source.Thats what really bothers me.Unlike many people I know,I wont say something to be true unless I know that it is true.Theirs a difference between knowing and thinking you know the truth.I know what"s happening to me is real and not some kind of brain malfunction.
It started while I was in the U.C.D. medical center after a motorcycle accident in 1981.I remember having what I thought was a dream.I was on a gurny in a room,there were others besides the doctors there.They said they were going to program me.They asked me what kind of program I would like.I didn"t understand what they ment.They asked me,if you could be anything you wanted what would you be.I remember saying that I would like to be more like Jesus Christ.
After about a month at the med center I was transfered to Kaiser hospital.I was there for several months.I started hearing whispering voices.It sounded like doctors and nurses talking about me as if they could see me but there was no one there.This continued of and on until I went home.It got more audible and more frequent after my release.I remember lying in bed and having the feeling of flying through space.I knew that I was in bed and awake but it was like I was also flying through space.It was so intriguing that I would go to bed early just to experience it again.One night while lying in bed awake,I felt like there was an electric energy around my head.There were voices asking me if they could take my brain-waves.Knowing that brain-waves were minute electrical impulses sent out from the brai n like radio waves from a transmitter I replied,if the brain-waves go out from my head and if someone could pick them up then I guess its ok.after that incident I started hearing voices every where I went.When I was in public they would talk about things that had happened or things I had done in the past in a way that made me feel as if it were the people around me doing the talking.This made me very uncomfortable and very paranoid.I realized that they had taken my whole life history from within my brain.They knew every second of my life as if they had lived it,probably better.Every where I went,I would hear what seemed to be people whispering bad things about me.When a jet plane flew over the thunderous roar would be broken up into words for me to hear.The sound of freeway traffic or anything that bussed or vibrated was broken up into words that only I could hear.They started telling me to read the bible over and over all day long for days.When I came across certain names,th e re would be like a thunderous roar accompanied by a screaming voice sounding to me what the devil would sound like.When I would get tired and couldn't stay on track,seemingly a chorus of voices would read along with me .It was pretty scary at times.I couldn't figure out what was going on.The voices said they were brainwashing and programming me.I couldn't accept that and told them so.They said they were going to put me in a mantle hospital They would imitate my neighbors voices and say bad things about me.They would have me hear whispering as if there were someone outside my room seeing everything I did with my curtains closed.It was like a total invasion of my privacy.There were times when it was like they were parading others in front of my room saying that I was the savior.They would say to me over and over again,your the savior Doug.This went on for several weeks.They would say,don't you know who you are.don't you know how big your spirit is.They tried to make me think i t was spiritual.One day the voices started repeating over and over,its ultrasound ultrasonics ultrasound ultrasonics as if it were a commercial.that went on for days.Weeks later,they started saying it was cybernetics.Having never heard the word before,I didn't understand what they were saying.After a few days I finely got it.Thats when I looked it up on my computer and found that everything that was happening to me was there for me to read.Since then they have tried to convince me that they were everything from God the devil the government the F.B.I.my neighbors my family the sheriffs,everything but aliens.I don't think its spiritual.I think its human beings with technology acquired from an outside source.I think it involves super computers satilites microwave antennas and people.Lately they have been bombarding me with frequencies 24 hours a day.They hit me on both sides of my head.Its so intense that it zaps my energy to where I can hardly get up out of bed.Its almost paril li zing.It puts me in such a bad mood that I don't want to be around any one or do anything.Ive seen on the computer that similar things are happening to thousands of people all over the world.I know its real 100% without a doubt and I,m sure others that its happening to feel the same.There is way to much evidence for our government not to act on this atrocity It makes me feel like they might have something to hide.It seems our government has been involved in secret experiments on the public numerous times in the past and the public never becomes aware of it for many years after the fact.I hope that what ever this is and whoever is causing it is exposed before I die.If not,I want it to be Known that my life has been a living hell since the early 1980s.The public really needs to know what's going on.It should be on all the news stations,in the papers,on the radio,on billboards.Our government should be discussing it on all levels.People its not happening to seem to have the att itu de,If its not happening to them,its not real.If you wait till it happens to you,it will probably be to late.
Douglas Clayton Wendorff
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Update 02-20-2007
My mind has been tortured by electronic/psychotronics harassment for over 20 years now. It's getting so bad that I'm going crazy. I feel like smashing everything around me. I have thoughts of killing myself. No one in my family believes me. They wont even listen when I try to explain what I know to be happining. I fear I'll end up in a mental hospital or jail. I don't want to end up like this. I don't deserve it. This is the most incidious evil that human beings have ever perpetrated on one another and they seem to be getting away with it
Douglas Wendorff
Update 08-05-2004
There is something evil going on in this world and it seems to be capable of invading the minds of men women and children throughout the world.i believe its a developed tecnoledgy that men with no respect for the rights of other are inflicting on others,to try and control the behavior of peopleBefore I started hearing voices I remember hearing high pitched frequencies in my left ear. It was like in elementery school when I took the hearing tests.in 1981 I was 27 years old. I was in a bad motor cycle accident. I was takin to the u.c.d. medical center with multipal trauma. I remember having a dream about someone asking me what kind of program I would like. I said that I would like to be more like jesus. After I got out of the hospitl I started hearing whispering wherever I went, that no one else could hear. When I went to bed, I felt like I was in a hypnotic state and was taken off to other placeses. I remember a quarts heater I had vibrated to every word that I heard and it was in a machenicle monotone hipnotic kind of voice.voices told me to read the bible doug over and over. When I did, at times it was like I would hear a thunderous roar racing across the sky and a devilish voice screaming obsenities. When that happened a choris of voices would join in and read with me, seemingly to keep me on tract. I heard voices wherever I went and still do. Sometimes they imatate my neighbors voices as if they were talking about me. Everywhere I go I hear voices talking about me.
As years went by the voices seemed to be able to hear me when I thought to myself in my head. I was going crazy trying to figure out what was going on. Then the voices started repeting over and over, its ultrasound ultrasonics, ultrasound ultrasonics.
A year or so after that they started repeting over and over, its cybernetics doug its cybernetics. I was amazed when I looked the word up on the computer to find the information on the subject was exactly the same things that were happining to me. One thing that I didn't see that I experience, is the ability to take over a voice and make it say my thoughts. That really seems to piss them off. They keep trying to convince me that its spiritual but after seeing all that I have on the computer I refuse to believe that. In fact it seemes like everything they say is an attempt at deception. I really dont know who or why this is happening to me or how they can let it go on for so long. There must be a way of detecting and tracking down these evil criminals. If this is men and there technology that is responsible for this, they are being used by the devil. I could go on and on with all the stories, lies tricks and attempts at deception. but the reason I want this documented is because sometimes it feels like they are bombarding me with some kind of waves that are making my face feel a burning sensation. Sense there is no way for this whole busness to be detected and prove what they are doing, they could be trying to slowly kill me and get away with it. Of course no one in my family or any one I know believes me so no one will even investigate if something did happen to me.
It seems if it's not happining to others, they dont believe it.
Received 11-01-2003